tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89703712024-03-14T01:09:32.899-04:00It's all good in the id!If I thought you would forget me I wouldn't leave---PoohUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger361125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-32691960922743633452016-01-08T21:01:00.000-05:002016-01-08T21:01:35.781-05:00A quick updateHello Loves,<br />
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I am super tired today but I just wanted to tell you that I GOT PROMOTED!!!!<br />
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I am now a supervisor! WAAAA HOOOOOOOOOOOUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-15086279017314641502016-01-03T17:42:00.002-05:002016-01-03T17:42:50.849-05:00Sunday RamblingsHello Loves,<br />
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Today my plan was to:<br />
Go to Mass<br />
Donate books<br />
Exchange gifts with my Uncle and Aunt<br />
Go to Bed, Bath and Beyond<br />
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My reality today:<br />
Stayed up all night coughing<br />
Cancelled and rescheduled with Uncle and Aunt<br />
Napped until 1<br />
Puttered around the house.<br />
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OYE!<br />
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I need to shake this sinus infection it's cramping my groove!<br />
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I said I wanted to blog more I never said I would be really interesting:-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-6560439474658466632016-01-02T12:39:00.003-05:002016-01-02T12:39:53.651-05:00NEW YEAR!!Hello!<br />
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This is the first year in FOREVER that I was able to enjoy the holiday season. I was missing the PosieGirl something awful but I wasn't stressed about school and work was just the normal"ish" stress so life was good my friends.<br />
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We even decorated! I was able to meet Scrapbook Girl and my cousin for dinner without worrying about anything like papers or dreading my internship. GLORIOUS I tell you!!!<br />
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We were able to visit with the Ohio Family (ok I got sick Christmas weekend but still Christmas day was PERFECT) and we went out and people came over and good Lord it's like we are normal people!<br />
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One of my goals is to update this bit of internet space that I have claimed for my own so be patient loves. I am working on it and focusing on me and my little family and our house and just enjoying my life and my first world problems:-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-83162778565053739682014-12-22T21:13:00.002-05:002014-12-22T21:13:32.052-05:00DEAR GOD IT'S A POST!So either Google stopped being silly or I got a clue.<br />
Hmmm<br />
I go with Google myself because I have a ton of clues so clearly it wasn't me:-)<br />
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Anyhoo........<br />
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Yeah so what's new?<br />
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I think by all that is good and Holy I might be near the end of my grad school career. I am in the process of scheduling a course audit and if I am correct I only have one more class to take after the winter semester.<br />
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I really really REALLY hate my internship. The only thing I have learned so far is that I don't want to work with adults or adults with substance abuse issues or with adults with substance abuse and criminal conduct issues. Yep I do not want a ticket for that ride thank you very much.<br />
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I find myself repeating like a mantra (I think I mean mantra) "Not my circus, not my monkeys" when I am at my placement.<br />
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My people, we all know I have control issues and at work I am damn good at what I do and that is comforting. At my placement? Not so much. Actually not at all. I have control of nothing and I am not comfortable making decisions on my own because my supervisor runs hot and cold and just ..I don't know I can 't get a reading on her. Does that make sense?<br />
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You know what else?<br />
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I want to have a life again.<br />
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I want to be able to call a posse member and get coffee or do a Target trip with one of them and not feel guilty that I am not doing homework or doing something for my placement or did I schedule that home visit or ....ARGH!!!<br />
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I also need a maid.<br />
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Peace and Love my people!!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-34298503123409492062014-01-05T14:44:00.000-05:002014-01-05T14:44:30.898-05:00Ok I can't figure out how to post with the new set up. Once I get this nonsense figured out I want to start writing again. I'm in my third year MSW program and I have an internship which I want to share with all of you and by all of you I mean my four loyal followers:-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-39847796018281185802014-01-05T14:42:00.001-05:002014-01-05T14:42:58.264-05:00OyeUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-80742779910586562512014-01-04T14:54:00.001-05:002014-01-04T14:54:50.468-05:00New Year New PostUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-28113101392872118892013-01-05T21:57:00.000-05:002013-01-05T21:57:01.108-05:00ShoppingAllo,<br />
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Today I went shopping with one of the "ettes" (long story, tell you later) and we found some lovely deals. I am now into going to resale shops to "save" money on purses. I actually put back a Michael Kors bag! Now don't get too impressed because I bought a new Vera Bradley from the Spring line:-)<br />
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Lush was having a buy one get one free on their holiday soaps. There were two everyday scents included in the deal so I got a holiday scent, a normal scent and a soap that is covered in black wax. Everything smells yummy!<br />
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I bought some inserts at the Franklin Planner store. Nothing too exciting there.<br />
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I wanted the Cinderella lipstick set from Sephora but apparently it was a one time deal thing and I missed it. I still have the gift card that Stinky gave me for Christmas so I am going to save it until I REALLY want something.<br />
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I bought a cute Kate Spade coin purse and it was on sale for close to 40% off. YAY!!<br />
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Yep so it was a pretty successful shopping trip:-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-79797494313755466562013-01-04T21:34:00.000-05:002013-01-04T21:34:00.849-05:002013 Please be better than 2012!!Allo Loves,<br />
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2012 was a pretty crappy year. I was flaring for the majority of it. Then I was diagnosed with Diabetes and then I lost my job. The Man and I are lovely but other than that (yes I am grateful that we are lovely) the year was absolute rubbish.<br />
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This means that 2013? Life can only improve!!<br />
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I made some resolutions for this year however I am going to refer to them as "goals" not resolutions because I break those and maybe I can reach my goals? Maybe? Sorta kindof if you don't look to closely:-)<br />
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I am going to be messing around with this blog because blogging is one of my goals. I will be adding a page for my goal for 2013 and since one of my goals is working on Casa de GermanLastName I may make a page for home improvement.<br />
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I bought the book "Young House Love" and googley moogley I LOVE IT!!!!!<br />
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Oh I also bought one of the Hungry Girl books and so far I have about 359734082 recipes that I want to try so I guess another goal is cooking more? Eh ok maybe I will become the Mexican version of Martha?<br />
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Hugs <br />
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-9343281510130093692012-11-17T15:53:00.000-05:002012-11-17T15:54:00.014-05:00SaturdayI am waiting for the cleaning gnomes to show up. So far, crickets.<br />
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Damn Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-7037506383639886462012-11-15T12:31:00.003-05:002012-11-15T12:31:44.397-05:00PTSDHey,
So my wallet was stolen two weeks ago. I was in a doctor's office with a foster child who was 6 years old. He was golden but we were in a walk in clinic and we got there at 8:45 and we left at 12:15 so golden or not he was six and he was bored yeah picture it. Anyhoo I had two packets of paperwork to fill out for him, I was trying to keep him entertained and I was on the phone with my supervisor, the DHS worker and another State worker and to say that I was a bit distracted is an understatement. My purse was on the end table right next to me however I was not completely focused on it.
I was using my new shiny purple Coach wallet and in addition to the usual things that live in a typical wallet I had my mom's last driver's license. What I miss the most? Seeing her smiling face whenever I open my wallet. I am not going to lie I miss my purple shiny Coach wallet but her picture? Yeah I really miss it and I want to beeyatch slap the ass who stole my mom's picture.
Also I now have a very, very mild form of PTSD in regards to my purse and wallet. I am now super aware of who is around me and I find myself looking at people and trying to assess how likely they are to steal from me which is not a way to live. Also? I have a lovely Kate Spade wallet that the Cousin got for me and now I want to use it but if I lose that wallet AND my mom's picture I may actually beeyatch slap someone.
In the grand scheme of life I know that this isn't life ending but it is life altering and I don't like being suspicious of everyone that I see.
Me and my First World Issues.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-39086363801495832832012-07-05T20:13:00.000-04:002012-07-05T20:13:47.954-04:00Fun wedding memoryDid I ever tell you that I thought I would NEVER get married? Nope not being dramatic I honestly in my heart of hearts thought that I would never get married EVER. I watched my posse getting married and I was so happy for them. I cried at every wedding and being honest 90% of the tears were happy tears but 10% were sad "this will never be me" tears. So yeah when I was blessed with The Man I thought that I had gotten the biggest miracle that the Good Lord was capable of (you know totally disregarding the whole making the world in 7 days, parting random bodies of water, making a virgin pregnant, burning foliage, etc).
I threw myself into the whole wedding planning circus and I never looked back. In my head I knew being married meant that I would be a wife, hopefully a momma at some point, my name would change, a covenant would be set in stone, in short my life would be completely different on 10-7-07. It never occurred to me that I would never live with my mom again. It had always been my mom and me since my parents got divorced when I was 6. Living with mom was all that I knew.
Oatmeally was with me the day before the wedding. Mommakins, Oatmeally and I ran errands (got our nails done, checked into the hotel, etc) all day before the rehearsal dinner. We had stopped by the apartment before the rehearsal to grab the last bits of wedding day stuff and it hit me. That was the last time that I was leaving the apartment as somebody that lived there and that I would never live with mom again. I lost it and my mom just hugged me and I told me that I would always have a place to live with her and I was going on a grand adventure with the man that I loved and she would always be with me. A true "AWWWW" moment.
On days that I miss my mom so badly that it's a physical pain I think back on that day and I smile.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-29841403907464307942012-06-30T19:30:00.001-04:002012-06-30T19:30:31.076-04:00New PlannerAllo Loves,
I just got my new planner in the mail on Friday. I have an Erin Condren Life Planner and it is just a lovely thing indeed! I am trying to work out how to show pictures of it without showing my real identity:-) I feel like a super duper secret agent type gal LOL!
Work is calming down a bit which is nice since that audit nonsense darn near drove all of us crazy. Am I the only one that gets giddy when they find out their supervisor is going on vacation? Seriously I am like a little kid on Christmas when she is gone. I get so much more work done when she is gone and not walking around asking what we are doing and just generally bugging the crap out of her team. I get my reports back quicker and with less corrections from the other adoption coordinator which increases my self esteem:-)
I finally feel like I have the majority of my ducks in a row which is nice since I haven't felt this way since oh I don't know last year!
Hugs!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-80107625883099274152012-06-23T21:13:00.001-04:002012-06-23T21:13:40.940-04:00Letters on a sneezy SaturdayI saw this link thing on several other blogs and I thought it looked like fun so here it goes:
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Dear HotPant, I love you lots
Dear Allergies, GO TO HADES!!
Dear Colitis, GO AWAY!
Dear Families that need to turn in updated clearances, PLEASE do so! I am not the one that wants to adopt the child YOU ARE so let's get on the same page mmkay?
Dear Cleaning Fairy, please come to my house pretty please!!
Hugs!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-26144487310798979632012-02-10T10:06:00.000-05:002012-02-10T10:06:02.170-05:00LoveYesterday I had a very icky not fun whatsoever test for my colitis. I had to prepare for it the day before by taking awful medication and not eating anything. I also have a cold that is making me miserable on top of being miserable. In short I was a whiny bitchy mess of ooze.<br />
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I was also freaking out because this test can also tell us if I have colon cancer. I have had Ulcerative Colitis since I was 13 which increases my chances of getting colon cancer. Fun times people. So The Man spent a good portion of his day on Wednesday reassuring me that he would never ever leave me even if I have cancer and that he loves me despite me being a whiny bitchy mess of ooze.<br />
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He took the day off on Thursday to take me to my test since I needed the emotional support and a ride home from the test. They put you out for the test and then you can't drive or make serious decisions for the rest of the day.<br />
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The Man was allowed in the recovery room following the test and I was still out of it when he saw me. My hand was laying on top of my hip and when I felt him touch my hand I grabbed it, while still out, in a death grip. When I came to I sat up and announced that I wanted The Man and I tried to get out of bed. He pushed me back into bed and told me that he was there.<br />
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Of course he was there.<br />
He is always there.<br />
He will always be there.<br />
I am one lucky Duchess.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-3569337719565086532012-02-01T23:39:00.001-05:002012-02-01T23:40:13.692-05:00How I am keeping the spice in my marriage!Working title: Why The Man volunteered to stay in Mexico for another week.<br />
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So The Man is back in Mexico. I am telling you this internets because you all don't know where I live so none of you will try to kill me as I sleep. If you do know me you know that I will bust a glock on yo' ass for shizzle if you try anything silly. Why yes I speak fluent gangsta!<br />
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Hmm anyway here is a snippet of why The Man is so tooting lucky to have me as his wife:<br />
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Please let me set the scene: I had just told The Man that I had burped and now I was hungry. I like for him to think of me as a delicate flower that must be coddled and admired so I share my shiny moments with him.<br />
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The Man: <i>The sad part is I’m jealous.<br />
Love you</i><br />
The Duchess: <i>that you didn't hear me burp and you can't see me in my sexy pjs.?<br />
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Ohh you are so missing out on the cuteness.<br />
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Seriously<br />
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Yo<br />
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I have it cranked up to 11<br />
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Why?<br />
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Cause my cute meter goes to 11!<br />
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Love you</i><br />
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Ohhh yeah its always sexy up in here:-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-78610812522489051092012-02-01T11:37:00.000-05:002012-02-01T11:37:10.818-05:002-1-12I love the first day of February. Not because it is the month of pink and red goodies. Not because it means that winter is one month closer to being over. Not because of the Super Bowl which I think is sometimes in January. No, the first day of February is my favorite day because it means the 1-31 is over and I won't have to face it for another year.<br />
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1-31 is the day my mom died. I HATE 1-31 with a fiery passion. I get depressed and I cry and it hurts all over again like a fresh wound.<br />
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I survived it like I knew I would.<br />
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I survived because of texts from the Cousin, Bunny Butt, Scrapbook Girl and the Pastel One.<br />
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I survived because of phone calls from the Cousin, Scrapbook Girl and Dinky. <br />
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I survived because I have a bestest friend that can call me and will listen to me blubbering and know what to say when I take a breath that will make me laugh.<br />
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I survived because I have a husband that loves me unconditionally.<br />
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I survived because I have a stinky that loves me.<br />
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I survived because I have an aunt and uncle that love me like another daughter.<br />
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I survived because I had a mommmakins that loved me more than life itself.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-78492619669652843492012-01-15T20:12:00.001-05:002012-01-15T20:13:30.028-05:00Sunday thoughtsI have so much reading to do for my classes!<br />
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My kitchen is a mess<br />
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I left my planner at work and I feel very scattered <br />
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I folded 6421686421 loads of laundry and I am still not done<br />
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I like this phone blogging:-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-49246538316932312302012-01-14T20:02:00.001-05:002012-01-14T20:02:28.581-05:00HeyI can blog from my phone!! Whoo hoo! Here is a picture of Loki PuppBoy to brighten your day.<div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEuX0cdS6zgFt3dasWuM8jvTpDpHhku-WZpq6-R-uQMYxnv2N0eox9JNWwCEC6liguxigNteeq8I6r_AEobkQvCuDGJe5y7-6cUA7d500vYnlKlaqPJq-_sYhCWoQGF1bqnDkb/s640/blogger-image--524831463.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEuX0cdS6zgFt3dasWuM8jvTpDpHhku-WZpq6-R-uQMYxnv2N0eox9JNWwCEC6liguxigNteeq8I6r_AEobkQvCuDGJe5y7-6cUA7d500vYnlKlaqPJq-_sYhCWoQGF1bqnDkb/s640/blogger-image--524831463.jpg" /></a></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-40618878706047759032011-10-14T17:32:00.000-04:002011-10-14T17:32:39.784-04:00The week of being sick and dodging serial killersThe Man was in Mexico from Monday to today. I decided to get sick Sunday and I wasn't able to go to work until Wednesday and that was only for a half day. On Tuesday I read an article on how serial killers picked their victims. One of the ways is that they learn the victims schedule and the example that they gave was when the lights in the house were turned off. This would signify when the victim was comfy cozy in their PJ's not realizing that a crazed killer was waiting for them to go to sleepy doodles.<br />
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So what do I do?<br />
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I turn every light on in the house and then I start to turn off random lights at different times throughout the night to confuse the crazed killer watching me!<br />
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HA! Take that crazy pants I am even CRAZIER (in a non-killing way cute way)than you and it would be easier for you to choose a different victim.<br />
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Laugh if you want to but I AM STILL ALIVE so it must have worked:-) Tired but alive!!<br />
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HugsUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-60769692642961472132011-09-09T21:00:00.000-04:002011-09-09T21:00:34.214-04:00FRIDAY!!Allo Loves,<br />
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So this week has dragged on like it was never going to end. I had a ton to do for work and this grad school gig started off with a bazillion chapters to read:-(<br />
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I definitely have to get in the groove and get organized.<br />
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In other news:<br />
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I am so excited that it is finally cooler in Michigan. I love the fall season from the cooler temperatures to the darker makeup! I don't wear as much red lipstick in the spring or summer so I rock it during the fall and winter.<br />
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We are doing some fun projects around the house! <br />
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Can you believe that I still have Mommakin boxes to go through? I am thinking one lazy day I will drag The Man to the basement (sounds sinister no?) to keep me company while I go through them.<br />
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I need to find an easier way to get my pictures off my phone onto my computer so I can post pictures of my new planner. I have my real name on it and The Man has asked that I keep some part of my identity secret (much like the superhero that I am) so I will have to get creative to cover up my name.<br />
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I am getting my hairs colored next week and I am rather giddy about it! <br />
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I also ordered some nifty cards that have my name, cell number and email on them since we are doing group projects this semester and quite honestly I will feel sassy giving them out. Yeah I am a dork but I am dork with really cute cards so eh!<br />
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I am opened my pie hole during a meeting and somehow I ended up volunteering to put together the Adoption Orientation binder. I refer to it as my "pie hole" when it gets me in trouble otherwise it is known as my mouth or my yap, you know depending on my mood and such.<br />
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The Cousin is coming to town and I find myself humming "Santa Claus is coming to town" and substituting her name for Santa Claus. This may account to me getting strange looks at the office.<br />
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Off to finish my discussion paper although I really feel that I have moved on from the discussion of free education in Utah.<br />
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Hugs<br />
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I thinkUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-4179094595727346322011-09-05T15:27:00.000-04:002011-09-05T15:27:12.099-04:00Hello Again!WOW<br />
This is embarrassing in many ways. I can't believe that I haven't blogged since what January?<br />
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I realize that not one is reading this anymore but I am commenting more on other blogs and I have to say I really really miss blogging.<br />
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So what is new you ask?<br />
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LOTS!!!<br />
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The Smart Girl made her First Holy Communion and once I figure out how to post pictures again I will.<br />
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The Cousin had a baby and her middle name is my mom's first name..LOVE IT!<br />
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I got in the MSW program at another university which is making me feel all smart and stuff:-)<br />
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The Man? AWESOME as ever.<br />
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Work is going well now that I did four massive reports in ONE WEEK:-(<br />
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I am really going to try and be a better blogger. This is just embarrassing that I have neglected this bit of blogland for so very long.<br />
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HugsUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-482469994318853122011-02-25T20:05:00.002-05:002011-02-25T20:13:51.977-05:00Things I am loving RIGHT NOW*** Sending gifts in classy shiny gold puffy envelopes<br /><br />*** Oatmeally giving me a gift card for Star*ucks so I can get coffee with the Scrapbook girl<br /><br />*** New Spring nail polish<br /><br />*** A warm puppy, a comfy couch and cozy blanket<br /><br />*** A husband who thinks I am cute when I have no makeup on<br /><br />*** New planner pages<br /><br />*** People telling me that I am a good adoption specialist<br /><br />*** Having Smart Girl tell me she is excited about going to her first Reconciliation <br /><br />Things I am not loving RIGHT NOW<br /><br />*** Jury Duty<br /><br />*** Having to sit still and NOT TALK for three WHOLE HOURS DEAR GOD MAKE IT STOP!!!<br /><br />HugsUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-37016367430411637312011-01-30T14:27:00.003-05:002011-01-30T15:04:43.164-05:00One YearMommakins,<br /><br />Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of the worst day of my life. I can't believe that I lost you so fast but really when I think using my head and not my heart the signs were there but I wouldn't let myself see them. You weren't bouncing back after having your stomach drained, you were constantly tired and you didn't even want to go shopping. <br /><br /> I wish with every fiber of my soul that I forced you to go to the ER the week before you died. You said you were feeling better and I believed you. I thank God that the last thing I ever said to you was " I love you" and you said it back. I have never prayed as hard as I did the last day of your life. God answered my prayers but not in the way I wanted but in the end I have to admit that I was praying for you to find peace and not be in pain anymore. I know that you are with Nana and I hope you are playing cards and laughing.<br /><br />The week of the funeral I took one of your pain pills because I hurt so bad I was in physical pain and I had the worst dream. I woke up crying because you told me that you weren't dead you just didn't want to be my mom anymore. That was the last time that I took a pain pill and it was the last time that I dreamt about you until just recently. In my dreams now you are happy and healthy. You keep telling me to go and that you will always be with me.<br /><br /> It has taken me a year but most days I can think of you and smile and not cry. I think of all of the messes that we got into and the fights and the jokes and lazy days watching old movies (which I hated at the time but damn now I find myself pausing when I come across a John Wayne movie...OYE).<br /><br />I am going through the old pictures and I smile at how happy you were growing up and getting married and then it was the just the two of us but you still had a sparkle in your eyes. I am trying to get the wedding pictures in some sort of order and I smile remembering the fun we had planning my wedding. You were so eager to be included in the planning but you were so careful to not take over because it was my wedding not yours. You were so beautiful on my wedding day and you just glowed with happiness even though dad was late. I thank God that you heard me say "I do" !<br /><br />I miss you every day but I think you would be proud of how your little family has handled you not being here with us. The Cousin and I email or text almost everyday. I have leaned on her more than ever this year. I sent the Hero some pictures and we talk a lot more than we did before. The Man and I hang out with Goosey and Uncle Nernie a lot. The Man and I are still going strong,even stronger than before. He is my rock and I love him more everyday. Oatmeally is still my voice of reason.<br /><br /> I miss you everyday but I talk to you in my heart and I know that you go where I go. The last year of your life you started telling me that you loved me "forever and always".<br /><br />I love you forever and always:-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8970371.post-17795994182793795752010-11-26T20:22:00.002-05:002010-11-26T20:32:26.378-05:001st ThanksgivingThanksgiving was my mom's favorite holiday. She enjoyed Easter until my Grandma was in the hospital for a couple of years before she died and Christmas was stressful but she really loved Thanksgiving.<br /><br />Since the second Thanksgiving that The Man and I were dating we have gone to the Ohio Momma's for dinner and we would pick up the Mommakins on the way back at my Aunt's house. We would have snacks and maybe a piece of pie with my side of the family. On the way home mom and I would plot our shopping strategy and The Man would drive and shake his head while telling us we were crazy. We would drop her off at her apartment and I would remind her to set her alarm and not to take her water pill because we would be entirely too busy for her many pee breaks. <br /><br />Well we went to the Ohio Momma's for dinner and it was lovely.<br />We went to my Aunt's house and I had two pieces of oddly spicy cheese.<br />Then we left.<br />No Rosie Posie in our backseat just the Loki Puppy.<br />I spent the entire car ride to the Pastel One's house crying.<br />This new tradition is so very wrong.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1